Wednesday, April 13, 2005

trying hard enough....

I am very sad as one of my colleague whom I considered as one of my best friends has been asked to transfer to different centre, not on her own will. It was the directive of my head of centre. I came to know about the news after I came back from field work at Kedah. We had enjoyable moments during the field work and I did not expect my friend to be transferred. The moment I heard the news, I had a mixed feeling. Sad, angry and all sorts of feeling which can only be felt by people who loss someone they love. Of course, in this case my friend is still alive but.....How would you feel if a friend of yours whom you have breakfast and lunch with is not there when you need her the most? How would you react when all of a sudden your best friend can no longer be with you and share the laughter and tears together? I cried my heart out the day the news broke. I just can't accept my boss's decision. Yes, of course he had the reason behind all this, but at least he could discuss with us first.
It has been two weeks since my friend is transferred to that particular centre. I still can't accept the fact that she is transferred there. It is as if I have lost a part of me as I am close to her. Although we still meet during breakfast and lunch, the situation can never be the same and my friend seems to be a little quiet than before. She is quite different now, being rather reserved than she used to be. That's why....I don't like things like this to happen. It can jeopardise our friendship. Whatever it is, I am still trying to learn that I can't have all I want in life. It's true that someday my friend and I will get married and we can no longer be together as always. So I guess I have to face it. Just like what my English teacher once said, "If you can't get what you like, just like what you get"!